You know, that one that goes “Write Drunk, Edit Sober”. I think I’m going to try it. Except with out the latter part.
Also, I’m utterly amazed at how little vodka it takes to go from comfortably tipsy to “I want to roll around in blankets” drunk. (I’m a happy, if very tactile stimulated, when drunk.) It’s odd. I don’t typically pay attention to tactile sensation during the day. Pain or comfort do not hold any particular significance to me. If anything, auditory or visual stimuli is the most attention-grabbing. Though that may be true for a significant majority of humans. It’s socially accepted* that each person has a generally different reaction to alcohol. Mine I believe is “giggler”, as the layman categories** go.
It’s fascinating. Watching and testing oneself under new circumstances and mind-frame. Conservative society dismisses experiences influenced by drugs/booze/sleep-deprivation/what-have-you but why? Because it is so subjective? In Northern-central mexican-native American culture, experiences during the smoking of peyote are revered for understand ones ‘soul’ or spirit dreams. Is it only western culture that places such an important emphasis on reason and testability of observations? Does that not ignore a vast knowledge of the self and the self in universe such experiences afford?
But then again, I am one to completely dismiss religious experiences. It’s a contradiction to be sure, and one that has bothered me in my subconscious for more than a few months now. Sober-me dismisses my drunk self, but my drunk self sees sober-me as rather closed minded. Hmm…Does sober-me see drunk-me as a hippie? (Also, why is there such a bad connotation with hippie?…Wait, I was raised by conservative parents. Nvm.) It’s not hard to want the world to be a fantastical magical land, unintelligible to the uninitiated and infinitely malleable to the insiders. When you read a fantasy story, or pretty much any story at all, the main character, the one you care for, is special, exceptional, privy to special information/magic/abilities/knowledge/etc. Yet odds are, you aren’t. The world most people inhabit, including you, yes you, sitting in your chair or bed(like me) is not magical***. You are only privy to your own experience and those of whom you are allowed to access, either through writing, visual art, or music. (I wonder if that’s why the arts are so important for a rounded world view…that would make sense). Yet my reality isn’t. It just isn’t fantastical or wonderful or even strange. It is beautiful and infinite, but perfectly ordinary for a 19 yr old college student in the US.
Speaking of which, this 19 yr old is going to rap up this rambling soliloquy^ by the need to remove my contacts before I forget. My drunk-self sincerely hopes you enjoy your day/night/tomorrow and try to better yourself/situation/the-world tomorrow. YOLO and what not as the hip-cool kids say. Hah, goodnight y’all.
* Aka: each person interprets drunkenness in a different way based on experiences and connotations one develops through out one’s life. Mine is that alcohol is dangerously seductive. Alcoholism runs in the family and what not. Also, you would think that seeing my Dad almost die from alcohol poisoning not once but twice would turn me off alcohol. Oh, liquor and my genes, you’re so silly.
** Other categories include the crier, the angry drunk, the hyper-active, the so-chill-you-literally-can’t-upset-them, and a few others I legitimately can’t remember. It’s my understanding and non-personal-experience that after a certain point, everyone becomes a crier. They are a hell of a hassle to deal with. I hate puke so much. So so much. But it scares me to let anyone go to sleep extremely intoxicated if they haven’t vomited. See the first note for the probable reason.
***I shit you not that this universe is utterly dumb-foundlingly astounding. If you don’t think so, you obviously haven’t any passions****. I would recommend starting with google-ing philosphy, art, any-culture-EVER, any branch of science, HELL have you EVER gotten into the wikipedia pages about MATH. I SHIT YOU NOT, the math pages are fucking amazing. Unintelligible to me most of the time, but I know they are wonderful, because it makes me happy people are smarter than I ever could hope to be. Is that odd?
****That was rude. I apologize. But seriously, you may want to re-examine yourself and life if you would even think that you have no passions.
^I had to let Google Chrome spell-check me on how to spell soliloquy. Good lord (not that I’m religious) but I am getting dumb.